I don’t know if anyone will read this. I don’t care. This is for me. For my records.
I write this at 10:00 pm at night, after just eating 4 pieces of pizza – after ordering a whole pizza, just for myself, for no damn reason. After a full day of heavy eating, donuts, fried chicken, dumplings, wine…
I guess I felt like I deserved it, after eating somewhat healthily for a week. I thought I wanted a “treat.” But this wasn’t a treat – it honestly feels like I’m just treating myself like crap.
It’s so different from how I used to be – I used to order in all kinds of unhealthy food and never thought twice about it. I also used to be 20 pounds heavier, but I never thought about it. Sure, I wasn’t 100% happy with how I looked in certain outfits, but I was pretty confident.
Now, I’ve lost weight and I’ve developed a slightly healthier lifestyle. But now that I’ve reached my goal, I’m finding it tough to stay motivated – to keep trying to be healthy.
But I have to keep reminding myself – being healthy isn’t about losing weight. It’s about feeling good, living long and being strong.
I want to stop this wasteful habit of ordering waaay too much food online, eating too much, and throwing away half of it.
NO MORE FOOD DELIVERY.
Unless of course, I’m sharing it with someone. If I want to treat myself to something – I should eat something in my crowded fridge, or cook something new.
Also, while I’m at it, I want to get back into working out. At the very least, twice a week. I think I can manage it, it’s just something I have to make the time for – even if it’s just a 20 minute walk in the morning.
That’s it. Pinky swear it to myself.
- No more food delivery on solo nights.
- Exercise twice a week.
Delivery is great, but sometimes these modern conveniences are too convenient for our own good. Enough is enough. Not just for me, but for my wallet too.